Two years ago lead to this...
Two years ago, in June, I started "blogging". I just sat down & started typing whatever random things were running around in my head at the time. No real direction, no rhyme, nor reason, just typing. I did so because I loved the community I discovered when reading my favorite blogs. I loved "meeting" new people & reading about their lives. Now I knew even from the very beginning that my life was no where near as exciting nor eventful as some of my favorite reads, but I thoroughly enjoyed writing anyway.
Before I knew it I had readers, a few people that had clicked follow, & even left a couple comments. I told myself when I started that even if I was the only one reading my blogs, that would be good enough for me. I enjoyed talking about the good & even the bad in my life. I appreciated being able to write about the days which were great & I even enjoyed sharing a few rants or two. Most of all I liked being able to look back & see a collection of everyday memories.
My blog had been floating around the internet aimlessly for two years. I never gave it a label, as I never really thought about what or why I was blogging. I just knew that I was. In a way it seemed like my life, it was in a sort of limbo. Stuck between where I never want to return & where I want to be. I kept blogging, as I wanted to keep my streak up. Like the number of blogs meant more than the content of them. It became a chore & like many blogs I have read in the past, I simply didn't want to write one more meaningless blog. So, I stopped.
In February I started working on myself. I talked about it on my blog in May. I joined MyFitnessPal, I started exercising & in May I even joined a 100 mile challenge hosted by SlapDashMom. I started to take things, like my health, seriously. I never want to be that close to 300lbs again. I never want to give up on myself again. So, just like that, I started on a journey.
A journey to lose 100lbs...
171 days ago I decided that I was done making excuses. I started watching everything I was eating. I became more aware of not only what I was eating, but how I was eating. I started excising. Simple stuff at first, a walk with Odin to the park. Each time our walk got longer & each time I got a little bit faster. I started stationary cycling. I couldn't do more than 15 minutes my first few times, but now I have gone as long as an 1 hour & 45 minutes for a total of 23 miles. Just last week I started a Couch to 5k program. Yes, that's right I am attempting to jog for the very first time in my life. I push myself a little further each time & I don't let myself feel bad if I have to stop. I am still doing laps around the person I used to be.
Since starting my journey, I have lost 56lbs. In 171 days I have made it beyond half way to my original goal. And, I feel awesome!
Now, I feel like I have a purpose. I pushed myself out of that limbo & I am bringing my blog along with me. I feel like there needs to be more real people out there sharing their success stories even if they have not made it all the way yet. Because believe me when I say, nothing is more discouraging than watching a skinny person tell you how you can lose weight. I find no inspiration in that.
Seeing someone with a six pack on a motivational poster makes me want to eat cake, not run a mile. What inspires me is seeing people just like me working hard & getting healthy results. Show me that couch potato who has binge watched nearly every television show Netflix has to offer. Show me that girl, because that girl is me! I want to see their dedication, their changes, their results. I want to see Joe Schmo running at 300lbs, that is true inspiration.
Most of all I want to see people getting healthy because they love themselves. Not because they hate their bodies. I want to see people losing the weight & gaining a healthy state of mind. And if you are like me, I want to be that person for you. I want to inspire you to do it. And this will sound like the biggest cliche ever, but if I can do it... you can do it. And I believe in that with all of my heart.
I am not a success story, but I am a work in progress story & pretty darn proud of it.
So to close this really long blog, which I am sure no one will read, lol. (TLDR; right?) I am kicking off August, my birth month, as a rebirth celebration for not only myself, but for my blog as well. So the changes you see are here to stay. I am no longer a blogger without a purpose. I am no longer a bird without wings. I am heading somewhere & I sure hope you'll join me for the ride. I have lots of stuff in the works from recipes, to my photo progress, & even a review or two. I do hope to see you around!
And to my little piece of the internet: Happy Birthday little blog, may the best be yet to come.